I just have a feeling that today is going to be tough. Please pray for Emily. She went to bed last night with pain in her lower back and she was experiencing abdominal cramps. We immediately began thinking about the worst case scenario. Thinking negatively has become so easy with our delicate situation. It's very difficult for me as a man, because I'm supposed to be Emily's "knight in shining armor," her champion, her hero. It is my responsibility to have a solution for all of her problems, right? Unfortunately, there is no "fix" to this problem, at least not anything within my power. Instead, I have no choice but to rely on God and have faith in Him that He will do all the fixing. Although I have a very strong faith, completely surrendering my doubts and broken heart to Him one of the hardest things I have ever done...okay, it IS the hardest thing I have ever done! This is both a lesson in humility and faith at the same time.
Emily's and my fears are nearly constant as we continue in our journey to see this pregnancy to full-term. However, with Caroline's condition, the chances are very high that Emily will go into pre-term labor anytime between now and 5 months from now. Any pain -- however slight, even if it's a "normal" sensation for most pregnancies -- is cause for fear that we are going to lose our baby girl. We're walking on pins and needles.
Our friends and family have been great though. We have received countless hugs, e-mails, phone calls, texts, FBs, tweets, and cards!
Hebrews 4:16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.