I woke up to a text message from my bank this morning: "Urgent! Suspicious activity has been detected on your XXXXX XXXXX card. Call now to confirm."
Instead of hitting the snooze button, rolling over for another 9 minutes, hitting the snooze button 3 more times, then sauntering downstairs to make my coffee....I frantically jumped out of bed, stumbled down the stairs, called my bank with my best groggy-morning voice, and began "the process." I had to confirm my identity in 5 different ways, cancel my current card, file a report of fraudulent usage, confirm that I had not purchased anything from a New York Gulf station within the last 72 hours, and request a new card. Now, I have to wait several days to get the money paid back to my account and another 7 days to get a new card.
So, Mr. Man from Islip Terrace, New York, who takes advantage of others: you're welcome for your free $149.30 purchase from the Gulf Gas station. But, apparently, you needed that gas. So, I guess I'm glad I could help!
Normally, I would laugh at this type of thing and just take care of business as usual. However, given my lot these days, taking care of fraudulent bank charges proved to be emotionally challenging. When you're already drained of energy and someone takes advantage of you, it really tans your hide!! ::trying my best to choose my words wisely:: I was so angry! I wanted to drive up to Islip Terrace, NY, and go on a man hunt! I have no clue what I would do if I found him. But that's beside the point. Thinking about doing bad things to him (however un-Christian that is) somehow made me feel better about my situation, even though my thoughts would never come to fruition. I had a great morning...let me tell ya!
This situation reminds me of the ever-present existence of spiritual warfare. When we are weak spiritually, Satan has us right where he wants us. He does not have to do any work because we self-destruct, succumbing to our fleshly desires. However, when we are spiritually strong (as I am right now), Satan's presence is so much stronger. He knows how God is using us to impact others and does everything he can to thwart our walk with Christ. This morning was one of those times. Planting those evil thoughts in my head are one example of how destructive the Prince of the Air can be when he is on the prowl. As Ephesians 6:12 says, "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Right now is tough enough. Being attacked makes it even worse.
Lord: Thank you for protecting me daily. And forgive me for my evil and wretched thoughts. Please continue carrying me as I'm still not strong enough to walk on my own. You're the best!
"I will be your God throughout your lifetime—until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you." - Isaiah 46:4 (NLT)