Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Journey Continues...in Texas!

Life is full of firsts. 

First car.  First speeding ticket. 
First girlfriend.  First break up.
First job.  First promotion. 
First child.  First death.

Yesterday, I got to ride in a hearse for the first time.  I'm not sure if I should call that a privilege or not!  But I can say that it was a proper ride for my little Cinderella as we escorted her to the airport cargo line.  She was ridin' in style!!  Only the best for my baby girl!!!  As for Emily and me, however, I'm still undecided.  I'd be quite alright if I never have to ride in a hearse again...at least until I'm the reason the hearse is being driven!!

We were able to coordinate flights such that Caroline was placed on the same flight as us.  That was pretty special to me.  I felt secure and at peace knowing that I fulfilled my Daddy duties in assuring Caroline was properly and punctually prepared for our flight.  Once we arrived in Texas, we also had the privilege of driving back to the cargo area to pick her up from the airline.  Finally, after dropping her off at the funeral home, we made it home for some much needed rest and quality Texas family time.

Today, we met with the funeral directors to make more plans.  Caroline's funeral service is scheduled for Saturday, January 7th, 2012.  Emily and I chose to bury Caroline in "Babyland."  It was somewhat comforting to know she will be laid to rest with other babies who were born into Jesus's arms.  However, picking out a burial plot is yet another first for me. 
The Yellow Flag Marks Caroline's Gravesite

It was bittersweet, just like everything else we have dealt with regarding Caroline.  But we have assurance that we are only burying her earthly remains...her spirit left us over two weeks ago!! 

God has been ever present during this whole process.  Emily and I both feel as if we have just woken up from a bad dream.  What I mean is that we both feel as if no tragedy has actually occurred, relative to what we expected to feel like.  We both expected to feel as if we were run over by Mack trucks and left for dead while our marriage fell apart and fizzled to an end as we knew it.  In reality, what really happened, is that God has been our pilot, flying us through the most treacherous mountains and valleys we have ever seen, and Emily and I just got to enjoy the beautiful scenery.  Caroline's death had extreme potential to be the ugliest event that we ever saw.  However, because of our faith in Jesus and because of our conscious decision to glorify God through Caroline's life, this journey has actually been one of the most beautiful events we ever experienced.  Because of Caroline, I have a stronger faith in my Lord.  Because of Caroline, I love my wife more than ever!!  She is a ROCK!  And because of Caroline, we are inseparable!!  To God be the glory, forever and ever! 

Thank you, Jesus, for giving me the best gift you ever could:  eternal life.  Because of your sacrifice on the cross, we will see our Caroline in Heaven one day!!  And thank you for also giving Emily and me the second best gift you ever could:  Caroline Grace.  We continue to commit our journey with Caroline to you. 

1 comment:

  1. Dear Cameron and Emily: What a wonderful tribute you have given to Caroline Grace!my heart and prayers will be with you on 1/7/12. I hope for a day of sunshine like Caroline brought to both of you in her short time here on earth with you. God bless and be with you both. Amiee


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