My heart is heavy and my soul aches. Oh, Caroline Grace, how I love you! I wish I could hold you right now. I would gladly lose sleep to hear your cry in the night. You are my inspiration. And I long to see your precious face once again.
Heavenly Father. My King and Savior. Great Healer. Holy, anointed one. Yahweh Elohim. Sweet Jesus, my Lord. Ruler of the Universe. Caretaker of my Caroline Grace. I long to see your face. And I wish to be in your court more than I wish to be on this earth. I am tired. I hurt. It hurts so bad. Please, Lord, give me peace. Hold me now. Ease my mind. Bless my soul. Carry me.
Lord, this is my song tonight (as borrowed from Mercy Me):
"Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains
So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through"